Times To Reflect..

I'm wide awake from drifting in and out all weekend from one's concious mind. Yet, now I'm fully concious of my surroundings, yet more importantly, blessings. Enjoy this "mushy" post while you can trust me it is rare.....

I listen to my hubby behind me, for once not snoring, and I think he is finally resting peacefully the first time in nights, he isn't snoring and OMG I'm wide awake I'm a fool!!!!

I had to let my dogs out of the prospective beds they took "territory" of in my childrens rooms. My little Ms. Prissy......who now has what mama had all weekend, suffering miserable, sound asleep finally, uncovered. I open her door let one of the furry beast out and she wakes up, I walk inside her room to lay her back down in bed, cover her up and in her sleepiest of tones whispers "Mama, have I told you how much I love you Mama, love muffin".....I whisper back in her ear, yes baby all the time yet not enough and mama loves you too my love muffin.....

I open my oldest son's door to let another of the two furry beast out.....he is trying to sleep but wide awake.....he whispers....."mama, I love you and am so proud you are my mama"..........

I let all four furry beast out of my house and reflect......how lucky am I. I finally have found a husband, *note for the record hubby: enjoy this post WHILE YOU CAN, you speedbump*, who took on more than most men would take on, adopted, calls his own, and also accepts ex inlaws, and biological ties into his home. Loves him, would lay down his life for him just as he would his own flesh and blood daughter.

For me, he is very protective, never stands up for me publicily unless I refuse too, and will never falter to correct me if I'm wrong, publicily or privately. Causes for many "issues" in our household because hey lets face it I'm always right.

Outside of my good fortune of finding such a wonderful husband and so many wonderful friends, my best fortune lies within my children. I sometimes forget what a blessing they have been in my life and continue to be in my life. The unconditional love those two give me swells my heart up with so much pride sometimes it is hard to breath. However the temper they cause in me on a good day, I have a lot of breath and freely express it.

But it is those "butterfly" kisses in the night, the deep sighs, the whispers of "I love you"..........man those KILL ME......

I'm a very "tightly wound" emotional person, I'll be the first to tell you, not much affects me, just ask "speedbump", but my kids and my parents, and on more occassions than I'll give him credit even "speedbump" touch my heart to the core of my being.

Over the last few months, I've had a lot of time to think, reflect, and evaluate. In that time, I've found my "TRUE FRIENDS" and found out that most of them are my family, "MY TRUE LOVES" again my family, but more importantly I finally found MYSELF. That alone is what I'm most proud of except for the fact, in finding the true loves and true friends, they will no longer be taken for granted for as they have been in the past.

Hubby is rolling around saying he misses me....aaaawwwwwww ain't that sweet.....ummm the answer is still NO........

tomorrow is yet another day..........