INSOMNIA SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it is 4:30 a.m. and I'd like to chalk up while I'm still awake due to filling in some of the "incomplete" sentences I've posted earlier or at least just getting home from a night of dancing, but well sad as it is, I just can't sleep.

I've been told by ~T~ she knows why I can't sleep and my mood, however, I wish it was that simple, been going on too long before that particular issue maybe that was just the topping on the cake so to speak.......

Are you lost yet????????? :smile Well then good I'm keeping my warped mind a mystery :lol

Tonight should have been, in a perfect world, a night of *sly smile*!!!! Little Ms. Prissy Princess is out of the house until tomorrow nite WOOOHOOOO, however, "BASEBALL", :angry takes over our lives this summer. Q14 on two select teams, one already having a shoe in to the Mi. world series and this weekend if their team wins a shoe in to the St. Louis world series. Now can someone explain this to me???? Isn't there only ONE world series for ANY league in baseball??? I'm into the more contact sport, FOOTBALL, put some firm asses into a tight uniform and have them bend over and well hello "Heaven, I'm in Heaven". Chasing a ball in the air is way too much for my liking of "golf", now there is a sport we could discuss ~ that in my humble opinion, is nothing short of a man wanting to get the ball in the hole and a woman wishing they could obtain their goal :biggrin.

While I was talking to Amies, a dear friend of mine and also ~T~, I was sitting outside so hubby could get some much needed sleep for his big coaching day tomorrow starting at 7:30 am *not enough coffee in the world to rise me at that hour* on the field and ready to warm up. :wtf is up with that? Guess who won't make the "first" game tomorrow :smile. Because I was looking at the Texas sky and saw the stars shining.............

It reminds me of when my Grandpa was alive and we were out feeding the horses in Wyoming. I was complaining I needed a tan and my Grandpa just laughed saying well if you want to know if the sun is going to shine the next day ~ the stars tells it all ~ that is when I learned you know when the clouds are moving out from an overcast or rainy day by watching how many stars appear while you just look up. *of course he put a whole deep thought process along with it ~ but that is between me and Grandpa :smile*

Have you noticed I may need a STRONG :cocktail ~ scarest thing is I'm dead sober!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *huge pout* Insomina makes you think of the wackest things I'm finding out :smile. Yet, on the flip side of that coin, the most comforting things from people who have past!!!

Grandpa always knew what a bitch I was, am, and HA, probably always will be, hense why he nicked named me at the age 3 "QueenBee" of the family. Somehow that has always stuck ~ even with people who didn't know my Grandpa ~

I don' t know maybe tooo many things are coming "full circle" for me too soon and too close together ~ I'm losing too many people whom are my rocks too fast and not ready to let them go ~ maybe I'm just not ready to grow up and let go of the past ~ who the f*** knows.............other than bottom line I HATE INSOMNIA!!!!! But tomorrow according to the sky will be sunny and have no fear, rather I'm sleeping, awake or barely living, my large body will be plopped outside on a lounge chair catching some rays from the sky my Grandpa made sure I was concious of on a night of insomnia :smile. Then I'll be at the baseball field watching Q14 doing his best on the field. Mama has to at least get one game in from the long weekend filled of baseball till late Monday nite. :smile.

Wish him luck :smile ~ I'll try and get a photo to post on the field tomorrow if not I have current photo's to post at a later date...........sorry to bore everyone!!!!

Have a GREAT DAY ~ I'm use to this so as they say

I'm the mama