January 2005 Archives

Surviving Adversity

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I was seriously going to write a funny post when I updated about my last outing to the sex store, however, a movie I watched tonight put things into perspective for me that it seemed more important to post about this issue tonight.

Tonight I watched a very depressing, yet very uplifting movie, on Lifetime ~ better known by my husband's words "Male Bashing Channel For Women". :confused11 Regardless his opinion, tonight even he watched the movie, okay except the ending.

Before I tell you the name of the movie let me tell you it's meaning. It showed a single mother of four raising her children and how close they were as a family and then she became very ill. This illness drew them even closer together as a family, and her being a school teacher brought other students closer into the fold. The mother overcomes the battle laid before her with the help of her children only to have the unthinkable happen............

COLUMBINE!!!!!!!

Yes, the story is a true story of a family who lost one of the members to the horrific events that surrounded the lack of parental supervision and gun control.......a travesty!!!!!

As a mother, my largest fear is getting that phone call, something beyond my control (and we all know I how I HAVE to OBTAIN CONTROL AT ALL TIMES) could very well indeed happen.

With the never ending hate that seems to be festering within not only American's but other countries against any human that does not believe or look the same as they do, how could one not fear for the safety of whom they hold most dear in their life........the reason for living and what makes the world go round our children?????

Yet, we can not live in fear, nor can we as a society or as human beings live in hate, fear or resentment ~ we must look at the good in our lives ~ not only look at it but treasure it. Every laugh, every smile, every I love you "just because", every joke and yes every pit fall and heartbreak and least we not forget every arguement. We must learn to thrive from these issues and learn to love one another as "people". People whom we found a place in our hearts that we allowed them to touch, rather it be for an hour, a moment or a life time, they touched us, they taught us and we will continually learn from that experience.

In my experience, I have come across a multipule of people whom have touched me in my life ~ some good and well some not so good ~ yet lessons learned. However, I'll stick with the good ~ I have friends that I have met on this box that have traveled across oceans to spend a holiday with my family and whom I call not only friend but "mom" to boot ~ I have friends who live in the States that, just as I would do for them, they do for me and my family, are there at a phone call when needed or a message and respond quickly for cries of help and understanding.

I have friends who live an alternate life style whom I have seen hurt, scorned *yes even at times even by me*, yet they still call me friend and I them and would be there for them at any given moment if needed!!!!

But the core of this post is what was said at the end of the movie ~ I can't remember the name they called it, however, I do remember the definition of the word.........the roots of trees all coming together and joining as one. Now there is a puzzler for all you highly educational folks out there :smile.

With all the evil in the world surrounding us and the acts of human nature that devsate families in an instant how can anyone call someone white, black, tan, purple or blue??? How can anyone call someone right or wrong for loving a man or woman rather the person they love is man or woman????? How can any of us judge and then expected not to be judged?????

In the end all of our roots join up together and we are joined and everyone's blood that bleeds is red at the end of the day!!!!

And if anyone doubts what friends I have, take a look around the blogs you read.............Arrrrggggghhhh is one of my "mom's", Sylvia is one of my "mom's" whom doesn't have a blog yet, Ms. Thang whom has a blog and never updates, Bitchy Chick whom I adore, Ms. Duck Tape Queen who is always there to correct my biggest goofs and typo's yet never lets me hear the end of it ~ woman I LOVE YA ~ btw update your damn blog why don't ya ~ KG ~ my bitch whom has gone MIA ~ for the record I miss you!!! T'sey where do I begin????????????? Other than I miss the hell out of you woman and love you dearly ~ Ran the bitch who keeps me on my toes and Whitger who threw away her souviner *however you spell it* from her trip to Texas *HUMPF* ~ and one I've never met on Strickly Therapy whom needs to update and T-Bone whom I have met and we so need another lunch soon.......the list could go on and on........bottom line is this...........all of our roots eventually grow together and without one another we would weither and die that is what is called family and most importantly that is called friendship.........

Like the title states................food for thought and yes Gary that goes for you too!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :biggrin

The name of the movie is called "Dawn Anna" on Lifetime Network Channel!!! It is worth the watch I promise!

Nite all

Jamie

The True Meaning Of Devotions....

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You've heard about some gifts I received at Christmas that held jewles, however, at the time I didn't realize one of the gifts I received would bring me more jewles in my life.

My mother bought me a daily 2005 devotional book. Now before you balk and decide to stop reading; and before the bible thumpers start jumping up for joy and then quickly change their tune; read with the open heart this post is being written.............

My devotion today was something I needed but didn't know I needed ~ which I'm sure I've lost most of you already, however, when I realized I needed what I read was via a patient who came to visit me today and our conversation.

Due to privacy laws, I'm unable to disclose anything about this patient other than what he himself discloses proudly he is gay. And my devotion today was ~

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways ackowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

For some reason the conversation with this one particular patient today has stuck with me all day, yet so has this bible verse.

Being raised by a Preacher and going through all that this family has gone through over the past few years and most the time it seems the light still isn't shining at the end of our tunnel, it is bringing me back to my roots, however, I hope in a better place to be a better person than I have been before.

And with that I came home and was in a reflective mood and was listening to music when this paticular song came across my CD selections ~ until I can get T'sey magic fingers involved you can't hear the song in all it's glory, however the words are just as powerful.

LeAnn Rimes ~ Ten Thousand Angels Cried

"Ten Thousand Angels Cried"

Stillness filled the Heavens, on crucifixion day.
Some say it rained, I don't know if it's true.
Well, I can just imagine ten thousand angels cried
That would seem like rain to me and you.
The angels all stood ready to take Him from the tree
They waited for the words from His voice.
And when he asked the father why has thou forsaken me.
They watched the saviour die of his own choice.
I've never seen ten thousand angels cry
But I'm sure they did
As they stood by
And watched the saviour die.
God turned his head away
He couldn't bear the sight
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.
As the sun slipped away
The skies turned to grey
And when Jesus gave his all
That's when the tears began to fall
I've never seen ten thousand angels cry
But I'm sure they did
As they stood by
And watched the saviour die.
God turned his head away
He couldn't bear the sight
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.

If you get the chance listen to the song, if not read the words, even Jesus was able to make a choice. With all the angels surrounding me in my life, rather they are straight or proud to be gay, I don't understand WHY is it so hard for outsiders to accept their choice!!!

As a parent it would be a hard pill for me to swallow if one of my chidren were to tell me they were gay, but it would be a pill I'd swallow. Would I love them any less NO, would I love them the same as the day I gave birth, no, I'd love them more.

Being gay really isn't a choice it is a battle a person has lived with all thier life of feeling "different" and Lord knows we all have felt "different" than the average joe in our lives. Rather it be popularity, rather it be a jock or not a jock, rather it be music or drama, it is being different. Why then is it so hard for other's to miss out on the friendship and devotion that these people can and do offer on a daily basis???

More importantly why does it take 10 Thousand of those Angels to cry before it makes one person wake up and see the tear stain checks and feel the rain before they realize they are angels also?

Just my mind provking thought issue of the day.......bible thumpers bring it on but at the end of the day you know I'm right!!!!

To my friends T'sey, Whitiger, Ran, their significant other's and so many other's that might cross this path I raise my glass to you all and are proud to call you friend and my heart breaks that you angels have to cry, but know at least one might turn thier head, as not to see you cry, but this one will never turn their head nor heart from any of you.

Blessed Happy New Year to everyone.............

Simply,
Jamie

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