May 2005 Archives

With T from work. For the first time since this whole drama has begun...........

I informed T she was going to be pissed in my comments and post *look below*, but yet, I made a mistake I incoroparted *however you spell it*which started this nightmare of comment (mostly) war. A post of similar issues I was linked up to from Kristi. That through all the wars that we have battled we can still call one another friend............

Update, I decided to take now the post below as not to anger anyone else!!!!
Teresa and I will NEVER be the same friendship wise after all of this just as Kristi, hubby, Speedbump or myself will never be the same. HOWEVER if we are to EVER get past this ~ EVERYONE no matter whom you are defending needs to back off................

I think the biggest mistake many has derived from all of this is that I think T is a bad mother..............let me state clearly now NO I DO NOT..........I think she is a wonderful mother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! However she and I just disagree on many issues!!!

I called I'm trying it was recoqnized........for she and I that is so NOT EASY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess it just depends and boils down to whom wants to see us move past all this and at the end of the day if we decided we can still be friends it really is up to two people SHE AND I.

Please everyone who may read this at least take this into accomidation ~ she and I have not always been good friends but we have been the type friends who fight and TRY and work it out!!!! AT least give us that time together should she want it ~ I'm trying.

Last night before falling asleep I was watching the news because of an upcoming Special Report on Cellulite that caught my interest. So after it's airing and hearing about the different products and greatly disappointed that I will probably always suffer from this unless I pay out the nose for it. I heard another pending story to be aired after commercial. This one is a scary thought!!!! The scariest part of this story is that it could happen to anyone no matter what the case. Just thought I'd share some of the news items I've found interesting.

As the count down continues for the trip home ~ Studly *as I refer to my eldest now* brought me some photo's that I ordered from the banquet last weekend. These were taken during the game played at Ameriquest field so I figured I'd share one with whom ever might be reading.......

Here is studly in action ~ remember this Slyfox?? You were there :smile

And then I ran across this one of the Prissy Princess the night before the banquet........her in all her true glory!!!

Simply

Jamie

For my trip home! This time for longer than a few days. I'm excited, depressed, scared, mad and sad!! The reason for the trip home is for a multiple of reasons. First off: a week from Sunday is my daddy's last sermon in a church that I have been raised in as he stood in the pulpit. For almost 30 years of my life my church home has always been that tiny mill church on the outskirts of town.

A little walk down memory lane for me if interested:

1) Scenario: You are out running errands and in the parking lot of a store. You get out of your car and notice an amored car, and the guard walking into the store drops a bag of money. No one is around but you. If you knew that you would get away with it and no one would ever know (thus, you'd never be punished for it)... what do you do?

First I would look over the situation, then I would in my limited educational value try to evaluate if I could get away with such a "sure thing". Then my common sense would kick in, which always the death of me and I would pass up a chance of a life time on "what if's" and hear about it on the news that night of someone else making off with a killing!!!

2)If you could have one "super power" what would it be and why?

To read someone else's intentions and thoughts....why? Let's face it I've been fucked over more than once I want an inside track.....!!!!!!!!!! If I had that knowledge years ago we'd have never faulter as friends!!!

3)If you could have dinner with a famous person (dead or alive) who would it be and why?

The person, my grandfather whom gave me the nick name "Queen Bee" the reason ~ because in Reba's song "The Greatest Man I Ever Knew" very few fall in...........my Grandpa is one and my daddy is the other.......and if I couldn't have that I'd request Steve's grandfather if for nothing else but for a game of pool!!!

4) What song do you indentify with the most and why?

Celion Dion ~ Because You Loved Me ~ why.......I'm adopted........I hear that song and it sums up my "PARENTS" not my biological ties!!! It also sums up one's that I hold dear to my heart and all we've been through as friends!!

5) Have you ever had thoughts of suicide or of hurting someone else?

Lets just say simply YES on both accounts!!

Gawd talk about some serious questions can I re interview you?? :biggrin GOD I MISS YOU KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're jealous because the voices only speak to me

First! the rules:
1. Leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ or blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Questions And Answers:

1. if you had one day to do whatever you wanted, how would you spend
it?

HA!!! You have to ask? Spend the day with Toby Keith perferrably in bed and not sleeping :biggrin

2. what sticks out in your mind the most when you think back to "I
wish I had said/done this instead"?

The whole internet spilled over into real life drama where I hurt friends over being mislead by someone whom I thought was a friend ~ we'll just refer to it as the Panties/KG/Parman drama and I hurt KG and Parman, however we have rectified that mistake and are close friends.

3. what piece of 'wisdom' do you most want to impart to your kids?

Be loyal to yourselves and resepctful towards others

4. what do you want to accomplish most in this life?

raise happy and healthy children whom obtain their dreams and I live long enough to watch them thrive

5. "if wishes where horses, beggars would ride" what is your 'wish'?
and it's not possible to get to outrageous on this answer! LOL

If Toby were the horse and I was the begger I'd ride him :biggrin

First! the rules:
1. Leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ or blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Answers: *for the record the spelling of my name is Jamie* :lol

1. If you could undo one thing from your past what would it be?

The past is what has made me, good/bad/or indifferent what I am today ~ life experiences offer lessons to be learned and grow from ~ that being said I wouldn't want to undo anything.

2. What is one lesson you want your kids to take through the rest of their
life?

This isn't so cut and dry as I don't want just one lesson for them to take with them, but the top on the list is to always work for their dream and stay grounded with family and true friends. To love and respect other's and never let anyone let them feel unworthy.

3. What is one thing you want to do before you die?

Go to Australia

4. Are you coming to T's wedding and if not why?

Still don't have a yes or no and if I'm unable the answer to why is financial

5. What are you thoughts on me?

I don't know you in real life so can't answer this one honestly or at least with all the needed knowledge to make a true conclusion. But from what I've read of your own writings, which with anyone, doesn't show the true individual ~ you are loyal to a fault, you are easily hurt even if you don't show it to the outside world. You worry about things you can't change and things you can and although you are working on being better at this in your life ~ the things you can change you brain f*** your choice to death until you can make peace with it inside yourself.