You've heard about some gifts I received at Christmas that held jewles, however, at the time I didn't realize one of the gifts I received would bring me more jewles in my life.
My mother bought me a daily 2005 devotional book. Now before you balk and decide to stop reading; and before the bible thumpers start jumping up for joy and then quickly change their tune; read with the open heart this post is being written.............
My devotion today was something I needed but didn't know I needed ~ which I'm sure I've lost most of you already, however, when I realized I needed what I read was via a patient who came to visit me today and our conversation.
Due to privacy laws, I'm unable to disclose anything about this patient other than what he himself discloses proudly he is gay. And my devotion today was ~
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways ackowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
For some reason the conversation with this one particular patient today has stuck with me all day, yet so has this bible verse.
Being raised by a Preacher and going through all that this family has gone through over the past few years and most the time it seems the light still isn't shining at the end of our tunnel, it is bringing me back to my roots, however, I hope in a better place to be a better person than I have been before.
And with that I came home and was in a reflective mood and was listening to music when this paticular song came across my CD selections ~ until I can get T'sey magic fingers involved you can't hear the song in all it's glory, however the words are just as powerful.
LeAnn Rimes ~ Ten Thousand Angels Cried
"Ten Thousand Angels Cried"
Stillness filled the Heavens, on crucifixion day.
Some say it rained, I don't know if it's true.
Well, I can just imagine ten thousand angels cried
That would seem like rain to me and you.
The angels all stood ready to take Him from the tree
They waited for the words from His voice.
And when he asked the father why has thou forsaken me.
They watched the saviour die of his own choice.
I've never seen ten thousand angels cry
But I'm sure they did
As they stood by
And watched the saviour die.
God turned his head away
He couldn't bear the sight
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.
As the sun slipped away
The skies turned to grey
And when Jesus gave his all
That's when the tears began to fall
I've never seen ten thousand angels cry
But I'm sure they did
As they stood by
And watched the saviour die.
God turned his head away
He couldn't bear the sight
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.
If you get the chance listen to the song, if not read the words, even Jesus was able to make a choice. With all the angels surrounding me in my life, rather they are straight or proud to be gay, I don't understand WHY is it so hard for outsiders to accept their choice!!!
As a parent it would be a hard pill for me to swallow if one of my chidren were to tell me they were gay, but it would be a pill I'd swallow. Would I love them any less NO, would I love them the same as the day I gave birth, no, I'd love them more.
Being gay really isn't a choice it is a battle a person has lived with all thier life of feeling "different" and Lord knows we all have felt "different" than the average joe in our lives. Rather it be popularity, rather it be a jock or not a jock, rather it be music or drama, it is being different. Why then is it so hard for other's to miss out on the friendship and devotion that these people can and do offer on a daily basis???
More importantly why does it take 10 Thousand of those Angels to cry before it makes one person wake up and see the tear stain checks and feel the rain before they realize they are angels also?
Just my mind provking thought issue of the day.......bible thumpers bring it on but at the end of the day you know I'm right!!!!
To my friends T'sey, Whitiger, Ran, their significant other's and so many other's that might cross this path I raise my glass to you all and are proud to call you friend and my heart breaks that you angels have to cry, but know at least one might turn thier head, as not to see you cry, but this one will never turn their head nor heart from any of you.
Blessed Happy New Year to everyone.............
Simply,
Jamie
