Rants: May 2002 Archives

first off I would like to say to all who commented and wrote me personally, thank you very much for your support, it really does mean allot.
dad spoke to her yesterday and really at this point does not know how aware she is of the situation..which pisses me off..imho she should have the right to spend her last days as she chooses..ie: with her family around her, and her family should be able to choose if they want to go spend time with her w/o having to worry about her getting suspicious! She is not a fragile person..maybe her condition is but she is NOT and if anyone can beat this thing it would be her..trust me on that one!

in other news..the kids are out of school here, and mine are down at their uncles w/ their father..only problem with this is I have no clue when they will return as I keep getting the "well I have to work you know" song and dance routine..somehow I doubt seriously this will look very good for him with our upcoming custody case..I could be wrong but I don't think so.

and while I'm at it I might as well throw in my .02 about the link debate going on (heck not that its worth that much *g*)
I link who I read..the only difference between the regular/new/occasional reads over there is whether or not you update regularly, or if I've recently started reading your blog..(the difference in the other 2 links is obvious I think *s*)
do I have all my reads listed? not yet.
do I read other peoples links? you bet I do..I've surfed through many of your link lists.
am I linked on all the sites listed? no.
does that mean I'm going to 'delink' anyone? again, no. I don't do that without a very good reason..say you fell of the face of the earth and stopped posting..
and with that said..I'm off to update that list ;-)

yaknow I really miss my disclamer...

Hello and welcome to my blog. If you offend quickly,
jump to conclusions, hate typo's and lousy punctuation then you probably need to go
back to where you came from! If not, feel free to stay, you might however,
find out more about me than you care to know but...
It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not."
--Andrè Gide

I read several blogs daily, some weekly...some just on occasion. depending on how often they are updated, what has never ceased to amaze me is when someone goes off on a roll on their blog about how other people write on their own blogs. who really gives a shit?
when I go read I'm not looking for grammar, spelling or punctuation..heck I could care less, I go to find out whats going on w/ that particular person, to find out how things are in their lives, (and maybe to find the latest test *g*) perhaps they have a way of observing something I hadn't thought of or much about. heck even when I read someones I don't care for I can find something interesting..in some cases more so than on friends sites..but one thing I never do is try to sit and edit or judge them..
I mean if thats why I'm going there why bother?

I've sat down to this thing at least a 1/2 dozen times this week and every time thought it best to let it be for the time being..

I've finally come to realization that it doesnt matter..as a good friend of mine said 'Your real friends know and will stand by you through this' she's right, I'm not going to sit and allow myself to become as bitter as she is over something I know (and so does she) is a lie..if the truth someday does come out, wonderful, but even if it doesnt those that are important know what it is and so do you, and no amount of saying otherwise will change those facts.

enough of that BS

numbnuts was digging yesterday, I found out that he FIANALLY got served w/ papers..bout friggin time..and concted some story about my youngest saying that I had gone to the courthouse..yea right, good one..now of course he's doing his damndest to turn my kids against me w/o actually seeming like thats what he's up to..he had my oldest in tears on the phone w/ me last night as his go between, and I did the hardest thing I've ever done, I told my son I would not disscuss it with him as he was way to young to be worrying about it and not to call me about it anymore..
thankfully all was forgiven this morning as far as my kids went, they went for a weekend trip w/ him and when i went over to see them before they left it was all hugs and I love you mommys and your the bestest mommy in the whole world from all..i hope and pray they know deep down that what I'm trying to do is what I really feel is best for them w/o all the head games and such that he puts them through...if I was never certain before I was last night after I heard what he had been and was telling them *sighs*
T-19 days and counting..I can't wait for this crap to be over...